There are so many things we are created to feel and know from the moment we come into existence. There is something in the way we can love that we will never fully comprehend. We can be abused, broken (physically, mentally, spiritually), neglected, negated and seemingly destroyed, yet we still maintain the capacity to love. Why?

Why does darkness try to find ways to engulf us when love is ripped away? Why is it one of the most difficult circumstances for humans and animals alike, to suffer and recover from? When it’s lost, why does it feel like a spiritual death, and sometimes, even cause physical death itself? There is something more. Something that has been engrained into every human spirit, outside of those who reject it. But even then, it’s in you.

There is more. And we find it in Him. The Alpha and Omega, Elohim, Yahweh, Jehovah, El Shaddai, Adonai, Elyon,…so many names for God. Each encompassing aspects of a father, the Father. We have an innate ability to love without prejudice, long before we are introduced into the human realms of politics, trauma, status…and yet, my heart still aches and I don’t feel immediate comfort.

The photo below reminds me of love, at its purest. A reflection of that simplistic, yet, so complicated love. A little boy and his dog. No one else. The connection wasn’t forced or manipulated. There was no hope or expectation for anything more than friendship, warmth, touch, love. A moment in time frozen. Reminding this momma, that where you start isn’t where you end. The future is in His hands, but still so dependent on your choice.

I didn’t HAVE to begin again, after everything I loved was taken, stolen, broken. I had a choice. God has always given us that. Choice. I don’t know if I will choose the love he intends for me, but I’m secure in knowing, no matter what, He will still love me. Even if I choose wrong. One of the most amazing promises that is guaranteed. Unconditional love.

His Son still chose us, despite our failures and constant rejection of him. What an incomparable choice. For those who reject, ridicule, deny, disclaim, and mock, He still loves you. Why? How? We will never fully comprehend. But, He does. And always will. How can I ever be worthy of that love, when every human I’ve given love to, has rejected me…?

I’m seeking, and praying for the patience and perseverance it may take to expose that answer. Meanwhile, I embrace the humanity I was blessed with. I search for the love He wants me to know, discern the answers He is exposing, and stand firmly in the position he is calling me to fill. I’m not alone. And that reminds me what LOVE is.